Wednesday, April 11, 2012

He is sitting in his chair eating french fries, eyes glued to the television.
Legs were folded neatly together while the heart admired the gift of motherhood.
Sometimes being a good mom is having a living room picnic while talking about our adventure to the library all while in watching the television. 
But that gift of being together was a treasure.
This is my life..

My greatest adventure

He grows and we teach him about love while pouring into him.  He will leave one day and if we've done what God called us to, he'll be just fine.
Being a parent is not simple. 

•Staying consistent
•Being the disciplinary
•Being an example to the sponge-like child
•loving on the hard days and through the straining moments
•Faithfully praying
•trusting God as they grow more independent from you

For now he thinks he's able to discover the world away from mom.  But it's my job to keep him safe.  I'm not letting these moments slip by.
I know they're going to go fast and so that's why on some occasions..
We make a mess in the kitchen and don't clean it up because i'm craving his giggles and he needs mom's attention.
We play chase instead of putting another load in the washer
Clutter piles up inside while we remain outside for the day.
It will get done in the late hours of the day when he's resting.

We're close.  Each day we wake up with huge smiles for each other and throughout the day we chat and laugh together. I teach him about boundaries and how to be gentle and kind.  We read books, try to learn sign language(he's not interested), we sit outside and he looks puzzled over a piece of grass between his fingers. We eat three meals together and he laughs throughout while I make silly faces meant for only him.  I laugh at his babbling.
He has always been laid back and easy going.
If he gets upset we tell him to pull it together but who can really reason with a one year old? :) We attempt to anyway!
His daddy comes home and he always hops up from whoever he is and lets out a screech of excitement while walking straight into the arms of his hero.
Every single day.
There's a man he calls dad that he can't get enough of.  And that dad is the second best father i've ever known.  I wish you could see those two together because you'd understand.
The evenings are full of playing, relaxing, with a short break for dinner.
I can't forget to thank God I'm reminded. 
{this is from Him to me}
What a gift for an undeserved girl!
Now this is grace lived out
If you're overwhelmed today as a mother
Remember that your child is a gift from the Lord so embrace them.
Treasure the days as their mother, don't speak poorly of them, pray for them always, and remember to give yourself grace daily.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

{Some Change}

One source describes change as the act or instance of making or becoming different.

 I have been seeking an answer from the Lord for over a year about how to deal with a certain (very important) part of my life.  I talked it over with family, and friends but claimed to not know what to do still.  Was I listening? Was I not facing reality? Or was I scared?

Well, I throw my hands up and tell you i'm not sure! 
But here is what i'm sure of..

I was sick about where I was, angry, annoyed, and plain old tired with a little bit of confused.
I was losing sight of my savior, marriage, the goodness in people, and the gifts God gave me.

But today as things unfolded in two separate conversations it appeared an answer finally came when i wasn't even searching for it.
Although I joked with the Lord about his time table being way off, I realized he knew exactly what he was doing.

I'm going to walk away from a place that I care about.  That part is hard.  But with no bitterness or anger, just for the purpose of moving ahead to a place we fit better.   While God remained quiet I was given a chance to work through a few things making it acceptable to move forward now.
I could have never become different with this change if I was stuck in unresolved conflict.

He cares deeply and has a plan.

Some lessons we go through are plain old hard.
But tonight as I was given a glimpse into this new chapter  I couldn't stop smiling because something in me was at home and I needed that more then ever! 
Tonight i'm going to bask in this peace that has come over me and thank God for it and his calling to move forward under his umbrella of authority.


Remember that chair I bought? That I cleaned and was anxiously getting ready to tackle the slipcover project?  Well that chair stinks.  It smells awful and it's been cleaned and cleaned with no hope of ever smelling better.
I'm debating what to do right now.
Pitch it out? Sell it? Take it apart and start over?
This $15 chair is turning out to be a little more then that. :)
Right now i'm leaning towards selling it and getting my money back.
Lesson learned.
In the future i'll make sure to not just see the price but check it over first even if I look ridiculous smelling it up close!

I hope you're having a great day and had a wonderful Easter!
I'll make sure to post pictures soon :)
Thinking about you!