Sunday, April 18, 2010

A life Well lived

Hey! Hope you had a great week/weekend! This past week i was feeling under the weather but am doing much better now.

This weekend I came over to my sister in laws to babysit the girls saturday night. Ej and i had a great time friday night talking and watching, 'summer magic' with delicious popcorn! Then saturday we must have spent a few hours at the kitchen table talking about our life. She is by far one of my favorite people because as i say she 'gets' me. We are married to brothers who are in some ways the same person. We joke about that a lot but in the serious moments of our marriages it is great to be understood and encouraged!
It is a blessing to be able to be invited over for a weekend into a home that leaves you feeling refreshed! There is always great conversation, laughter, endless cups of coffee, and two adorable girls that make life sweeter! Last night the girls and i watched phineus and ferb the greatest kids show (i have to admit i'm in love with it), and snuggled on a recliner chair that wasn't made for three people haha. It's easy to laugh around the girls, they say the funniest things, and it's easy to know you're adored by the out of the blue 'i love you aunt laura'. Those little things in my life are the ones i treasure the most!

This past week i was feeling sorry for myself and i'm a little ashamed about that but a clear message was recieved that i have choices, and following God daily is my choice. We as christians go through times of discouragement when life doesn't make sense, there is a lot of pain around the world and it doesn't look hopefull. I slip into sadness far to much rather then looking to God for hope. There are things going on in the world that when added up have you asking, what is the point? Our world is a mess! Jesus came at a time when the world was messed up too but he was sent for a purpose. He requires things of me as well no matter what the status of the world is, or how hopeless it seems. When I remember who God is, i feel ashamed for not remembering why there is hope. I need to daily disipline myself to come into God's presence and remember his intructions. It is a choice though and some days i am too caught up in the distraction that i forget to look to Jesus.

Darren drives me crazy crazy crazy some days but boy do i love him! We have an imperfect marriage because we are two imperfect people. This week we were facing the truth that men and woman are different and it's not simple clashing the worlds of two very different people. I can't stand after a fight when you realize you were wrong here or there because i'm a stubborn lady! (it's not something i'm proud of ha) Admitting i'm wrong is very hard because i want to be the right one. I believe the things i am upset about are valid but for some reason i ALWAYS find the WORST time to bring them up...normally on the phone late at night. Then i'm upset with him for not saying anything or wanting to give me profound answers. Darren is exhausted and ready for bed, and me being a night person am all ready for a soul to soul conversation. I have done this for a long time, the poor guy. Although in my mind i think, 'i would be there for him any time of day;, the truth is, if he tried to wake me up at 4:30 i would not be excited to have a heart to heart. I am wrong to fault him and become angry saying he does not care, because he cares deeply for me! But at midnight his body is ready for bed. The things i want to talk about are important, but i need to learn the art of timing.

I hope you have a great evening! Lastly i would like to share a verse of encouragement for both you and me.
I'm applying it to my life as i am preparing for figuring out my fall college selection.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9