Sometimes I have to wonder why God allows me to walk through what seems like unnecessary junk. Conflict, hurt feelings, misunderstandings, and more. Why can't he use that mighty hand and direct me around those trials so I can go on my merry way?
But it is necessary.
I wish that I had everything figured out. I wish that I was a picture of perfection but I'm not. I'm really a messy individual but can I tell you in the midst of all my faults God's grace has never felt so wonderful.
Am I the only one afraid of going unnoticed. of not being heard or validated?
Because sometimes God's still small voice doesn't cut it and I want more.
I want to belong.
to a family
a group of friends
I want purpose and to be validated for the work I do.
Feeling small hurts.
But here is what I've learned.
God needs to take me through this time of feeling small because he's going to use each experience, each hurt, and lesson to draw me closer to Him and ultimately to bring himself glory.
"A thousand times i've failed still your mercy remains'