Thursday, August 11, 2011

He's almost 6 months now and continues to charm his way into my heart day after day. Even though my heart is full of love for him no matter what.  This evening he sat on my lap while we learned about Hannah and how she had a little boy named Samuel and gave Him to God. I kissed his cheeks and told him that I had also given Him to God and prayed one day he would love God.  My baby reached for his story bible to gnaw away at the pages but as I whispered a prayer to the Lord He looked up at me and smiled. 
I can't help but praise my savior for this tiny gift.  I have the most incredible job in the world.

I can't wait to see you slip on your rain boots and jump in the puddles or go on adventures with a cardboard sword.  You are blessed.

I'm enjoying a quiet day.  In fact me, myself, and I went on a date! To the movies :).  I asked Darren if it would be okay if I slipped out for the evening and said, 'Go for it!'. We all need a break from reality from time to time.  Then I came home and sat on the deck just in time to watch a beautiful sunset while enjoying time with my heavenly father.  

  I hope you're enjoying this day!  

Sunday, August 7, 2011

I wasn't actually going to write today but I am filled with endless thoughts that need sorting! I feel that whenever I write things in my life are put into perspective and I see what God is doing as I read back through my blog.  It's always neat to step back and say 'oh hey that's what you're getting at with me!'. So today i'm writing for some serious selfish purposes, sorry!

Now lets get to talking about this picture.  Let me build this up for you..imagine with me a small child absolutely thrilled as their ice cream cone is being prepared and they're standing on their tippy toes to catch a glimpse of their treat.  Their grin is HUGE and finally the ice cream cone is in their hands and as they start skipping along it slips and drops onto the ground.  Now picture that small child tear filled eyes staring down at their sweet treat mushed on the ground! How disappointing right?!  

Today that small child was me at a kickoff party for my new business. I can't tell you how beyond thrilled I had been to start this venture. I put a lot of time and energy into getting things going and looked forward to my party today.  Last night I was practicing the math side because I've been sick to my stomach about doing math! I prayed about it all week actually! Well today was a lot of fun with friends but I didn't have any luck selling anything.  I can't tell you what that feels like except to refer back to the ice cream story.  But here's the wonderful part..God is teaching me a few things today that I'm thankful for!  I won't go into detail about everything but lets at least laugh about the fact that I didn't end up having to do any math :).  
After everyone left I was able to talk with my family which was just what I needed. I can't tell you how great it was to be encouraged by each one of them.  I needed that because I was feeling like quite the failure! I'm thankful for the way God quickly showed up and surrounded me with love. It turns out that a few of my family members actually ended up buying something! Which made me feel really really good. 

I wasn't actually going to write about this stuff because I didn't want to be a downer but I thought wow, i'm sure you probably have or will face disappointment in different situations and I wanted to encourage you. It is easy to let your emotions spin out of control but I love the ability to control what attitude I have.  God is going to bless me so much more if I remain positive.  It doesn't ease the pain of disappointment at that moment but it does give you the chance to dismiss those thoughts that aren't so wonderful.  

I'm not really sure what will happen with this business but i'm thankful that I gave it a shot! I was able to gather with a group of friends today that I really enjoy seeing. 
On another positive note at least my home is super clean! :)

Moving on..

We went to Jamestown yesterday which was such a neat experience.  I love learning about   our history and how america came to be so it was neat to explore. Garrett was really well behaved which made walking around enjoyable for everyone.
I have really been soaking him up lately.  He is a wonderful little baby who has the sweetest smiles.  

Alright well I need to get to bed!