I wasn't actually going to write today but I am filled with endless thoughts that need sorting! I feel that whenever I write things in my life are put into perspective and I see what God is doing as I read back through my blog. It's always neat to step back and say 'oh hey that's what you're getting at with me!'. So today i'm writing for some serious selfish purposes, sorry!
Now lets get to talking about this picture. Let me build this up for you..imagine with me a small child absolutely thrilled as their ice cream cone is being prepared and they're standing on their tippy toes to catch a glimpse of their treat. Their grin is HUGE and finally the ice cream cone is in their hands and as they start skipping along it slips and drops onto the ground. Now picture that small child tear filled eyes staring down at their sweet treat mushed on the ground! How disappointing right?!
Today that small child was me at a kickoff party for my new business. I can't tell you how beyond thrilled I had been to start this venture. I put a lot of time and energy into getting things going and looked forward to my party today. Last night I was practicing the math side because I've been sick to my stomach about doing math! I prayed about it all week actually! Well today was a lot of fun with friends but I didn't have any luck selling anything. I can't tell you what that feels like except to refer back to the ice cream story. But here's the wonderful part..God is teaching me a few things today that I'm thankful for! I won't go into detail about everything but lets at least laugh about the fact that I didn't end up having to do any math :).
After everyone left I was able to talk with my family which was just what I needed. I can't tell you how great it was to be encouraged by each one of them. I needed that because I was feeling like quite the failure! I'm thankful for the way God quickly showed up and surrounded me with love. It turns out that a few of my family members actually ended up buying something! Which made me feel really really good.
I wasn't actually going to write about this stuff because I didn't want to be a downer but I thought wow, i'm sure you probably have or will face disappointment in different situations and I wanted to encourage you. It is easy to let your emotions spin out of control but I love the ability to control what attitude I have. God is going to bless me so much more if I remain positive. It doesn't ease the pain of disappointment at that moment but it does give you the chance to dismiss those thoughts that aren't so wonderful.
I'm not really sure what will happen with this business but i'm thankful that I gave it a shot! I was able to gather with a group of friends today that I really enjoy seeing.
On another positive note at least my home is super clean! :)
We went to Jamestown yesterday which was such a neat experience. I love learning about our history and how america came to be so it was neat to explore. Garrett was really well behaved which made walking around enjoyable for everyone.
I have really been soaking him up lately. He is a wonderful little baby who has the sweetest smiles.
Alright well I need to get to bed!