Saturday, October 15, 2011

I glance out the window and see it jetting out of the ground.  Leaping up I startle the little guy. Where has that old camera gone to now? Guess my cell phone camera will do this time.  
There..I got it. As I admire it my heavenly father is remembering his promise.   It feels special to know what he is thinking. He won't flood the world again, no matter how bad things get.   

Genesis 9:8-17

The Message (MSG)

 8-11 Then God spoke to Noah and his sons: "I'm setting up my covenant with you including your children who will come after you, along with everything alive around you—birds, farm animals, wild animals—that came out of the ship with you. I'm setting up my covenant with you that never again will everything living be destroyed by floodwaters; no, never again will a flood destroy the Earth."
 12-16 God continued, "This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and everything living around you and everyone living after you. I'm putting my rainbow in the clouds, a sign of the covenant between me and the Earth. From now on, when I form a cloud over the Earth and the rainbow appears in the cloud, I'll remember my covenant between me and you and everything living, that never again will floodwaters destroy all life. When the rainbow appears in the cloud, I'll see it and remember the eternal covenant between God and everything living, every last living creature on Earth."
 17 And God said, "This is the sign of the covenant that I've set up between me and everything living on the Earth."

Thank you Lord for this sweet reminder.  Thank you for setting your rainbow in the sky and making it beautiful for all to see.


Today was especially fun because this baby played in his room after mommy organized it! He seemed to enjoy playing with the toys in his basket and reading books.  He is push-up crawling..can you picture that? It's pretty excited to watch him move but my husband and I have both been getting a workout as we get up and down quite often to chase him. What will it be like when he is walking?  
I hope you are having a good weekend. 
My evening has been full :) running at the gym, playing the game speed with Darren, and now being his teammate for a madden tournament. Yeah the last one is out of pure love for him. ;) 

Friday, October 14, 2011

He is teaching in the midst of my discontentment.

Tired eyes scroll down a long list of real estate postings.  "There has to be something for us".  Sticker shock begins to settle in but we try to adjust our high hopes to fit into any home in our budget. I can see them shaking their heads in disapproval.  I can even understand when they say, 'What will you do when the military moves you?', 'It's a big financial commitment', 'That's probably not the wisest decision'.  

We look at each other after spotting a dream home and both get giddy with excitement.  A Yard!? A garage!? How many rooms? whoa!.  We smile and talk about what it would be like to have a home.  My husband is confident and determined.  I admire his profile while he talks.  Are we really dreaming of our future together again? I smile as I remember a previous conversation the other day. We sat quietly in the car, 'We've only been married three years and all of these things have happened, we still hopefully have like 47!, cool'. He doesn't talk much which drives me out of my sweet loving mind! Returning to the search I tell him it would be so nice to own a home. 
But we're living on one income that down on paper doesn't look like much.  I know in my heart we can't buy a home.  I know God isn't leading us in that direction today.  

Eyes shut tight, head drops to my hands slowly. "Lord, i want a place on a wall to mark my children's growth.  I want to be in the same place for more then two years.  I want my own home.  To paint, remodel, and make it our own.  I want room for people to gather and grow."  

I still dream...

I reach for that small bible that has become like a good friend.  Hands extend quickly when spotted.  Flipping through the noisy pages I find his words.

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say to the Lord, "My refuge and my fortress my God, in whom I trust." (psalm 91:1-2 emphasis mine)

Leaning back I am nothing but thankful for the reminder that He is my home.  He has heard my words and cares.  I browse around my home now and am reminded he lead us here a year ago.  That it's actually a beautiful place to call home.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

She adores.
He's looking out the window, banging on it in excitement. He smiles. My heart is grateful.  I fill his silence with silly noises that make him giggle.  Our days written out don't look like much accomplished, but we're happily growing together.  Mother tales can seem boring to the reader but spend an afternoon with an adoring child and you'll want to tell everyone what they did that made your day.  Watching a child discover the world is a gift from above.  I love treating him like royalty each day we've had together.  

She runs.
Setting goals and seeing progress is amazing.  It's a reminder that hard work pays off and to keep going! My legs are growing stronger through what seems to be endless minutes of running, but it feels great!

She learns.
To never be proud.  Aren't we all one step away from falling into sin? But here's what I've decided.  When things are a mess, Let it be, surrender your rights to God, then commit every moment to following Him.  Dust off that old book and discover Him again.  Be in awe by the simple things like how he thinks your worth being kept. (Isaiah 41:9-10)

She's forgiven.
Kneeling down before God when necessary is freeing.  Accepting His forgiveness and fleeing from anything that's causing sin can actually be hard though.  Selfishness is deeply rooted in me and it'll take time to dig out those roots and allow them to be replaced with beautiful things only God gives.

She gives thanks.
For my husband, my son, my home, family, friends, fall, health, freedom, 22 years, for this blog, and for His grace that extends daily.

She prays
In knew ways. Without ceasing and it continues on into the late hours of the night like two old friends catching up. (1 Thessalonians 5:17) She lifts up hurting friends to Him, asks for guidance and help to overcome what appears to be mountains.  Gives praise and thanks more then ever before.

She worships
Eyes closed, sitting down, she lifts her hand symbolizing surrender to her King.  A song plays, 'Sovereign king, reign in me' and she sings to him hoping it will be a sweet sound in his ears.

She writes
To encourage

"The enemy pursues me, 
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in darkness
like those long dead.
So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed."
Psalm 143:3-4

"Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you? 
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and portion forever."
Psalm 73:23-26