Tonight I went for a run and had a great chat with my Heavenly Father. I probably looked like a crazy lady running with a gigantic smile but I couldn't help it.
Here is a picture from when I was younger. I was super happy and I remember smiling a lot. I loved Jesus and not in a cliche, say it all the time kind of way but I really loved this Jesus that I heard about all the time.
On that joyful day I got up and professed my faith in front of my church family and was baptised. It was incredibly special to make this choice on my own and understand the meaning behind it. I was smiling ear to ear because I loved Jesus deep in my heart!
High School! Here I am with my big brother :). But again I was happy and loved Jesus as my relationship with Him began to grow and I started to understand the meaning of what it is to serve God and have a relationship with Him.
And to portrait this last year. I have loved Jesus still, even more then ever before.
From a tender heart I share this with you,
New International Version 1984 (NIV1984)
5 Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6 Who, being in very nature[a] God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7 but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8 And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
9 Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11 and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.
A sob crept up quickly in my chest and I let out a cry. My hand flew to my mouth to silence but not fast enough, with eyes shut tight I announced to my King that I loved Him. It's all I could say but He knew the rest. For it was his grace that led such a hard heart to break into a gooey slobby mess all open and raw. But He didn't plan to leave it that way, no he had plans and when he knelt beside me lifting my chin reminding me that He had been waiting and planning a way back to Him all that time. He took hold of this heart and let the junk come pouring out and took it in his hands nailing it to the cross so long ago. Asking me to stop carrying around the guilt of sin and accept the gift of Grace. He told me it's been forgiven that freedom was mine and how his yoke was easy. Oh the wonders He could show to me! So I continued to offer my heart completely to Him with hope for the future. I wanted to become less and Him to become greater in that moment. He showed me where I went wrong and asked if I'd be willing to do the hard work while He helped me back to health.
I wanted to lay flat on my face and not move but to bow before my savior, King, and the one who came and died in my place.
He gave more then I deserved. He took a wretched sinner and has begun to restore this broken soul.
Like a flood breaking down the barriers I had up and rushing through to the corners of my heart joy, love, and hope are being replaced where once bitterness, anger, low self-esteem, and brokenness showed their ugly faces.
He's doing wonderful things in my life friends, I wonder if you know Him too?
Life was meant for more then what the world offers, of this i'm convinced. I praise God for blessing me with 22 years and the privilege to get to know Him no matter where I've been.