Friday, June 10, 2011

My sweet friend Crystal!

pretty toes :)

Here's a few pictures from yesterday at the zoo and my girls night out!

I can't even begin to describe the joy I have when I write in my blog and how comfortable and safe this place is for me.  Writing is my passion and I would never clump myself in with the great writers out there but I have been journaling since I was little and blogging since highschool, it sure is fun!  Thank you for listening to my heart and loving me!

Tonight I was doing my daily bible reading (Reading the Bible in a year) and oh my goodness was I at the edge of my seat. Now that must be how God meant reading his word to look like. :) I was in Genesis 28 and 29 reading about Jacob's family.  My sweet husband is across the room watching baseball and I blurt out 'How am I ever going to remember all of this!!' he just shook his head and I proceeded to trail on out loud about how Abraham is the father of Isaac, God asks him to sacrifice his son then says No stop!, Isaac marries Rebekah, they have two sons Esau and Jacob, Jacob tricks his blinding father into believing he is the firstborn-Esau, Now Esau wants to kill his brother, THEN there is now Jacob's family he goes away so his brother won't kill him and he falls in love with Rachel but has to wait 7 years while he works for her father...well he does and then the father tricks him and he marries/lays with the older daughter Leah!, Jacob is upset and has to work seven more years to earn a marriage with the one he loves, Rachel.  God opens Leah's womb and she has three sons which causes Rachel to be jealous so she offers her maidservant.  Leah at this point is done having children and tried gaining Jacob's love through children but it didn't work so she offers her maidservant.........

This story connects to the nation of Israel that I have yet to read about.  This book was meant to be read through in full.  I am thrilled to find out in my future readings how this all works together for God's glory..and it will.  Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob have interesting stories and important roles in the gospel of Jesus.  I am excited to read more but boy is this a lot to remember and retain! I'm being consistent in asking God to help me remember.  Darren is being a great sport in hearing me out as I stretch this story out to find the deeper truths here. Exciting stuff, huh? I think by committing to God's word He is changing my heart and i'm falling hard for him.  He is incredible in the way he is in the details of everyday life.

These three men mentioned above are simple simple simple men! I LOVE that because that's me. I don't know what sort of talents they had but God is not once mentioning their accomplishments because what matters to him is that they are serving Him. You will be amazed at how life looks when you accept it's not about you...and it's all about Him.  I know that it's still a hard concept to understand for me since by nature i'm selfish.  My eyes have been glued to Him lately and it is effecting my marriage, and relationship with Garrett, and how I love friends.  I am happy..and I didn't do anything other than open my bible and pray.  He said he would change my heart and he is..he is opening my heart to new ideas and a love only he gives.

I have never hurt to see God but tonight I ache to hear his voice and see his eyes...I tell him that although he feels like an old friend seeing him for the first time will be the sweetest moment and I'l realize how little I knew. Can I tell you my secret??

I am a visual person.  I learn by seeing or hands on..maybe that's why I stink at math?! Anyways this goes back years ago.  I read a story about how our heart is like a home and there are different rooms. One room was described all warm and cozy and God was waiting there for us.  I guess it stuck with me..because when I pray my eyes are closed and I go to that room.  There's a fireplace and it's quiet, my Jesus is sitting on the couch and although I never see him in detail he is there and I sit down and let it out.  Sometimes our conversation starts as me saying, 'I'm sorry it's been awhile, i've missed you so much..'.  He just always loves me and that place where he is in my heart is wonderful..because he is there.
Right now he is making my ENTIRE heart his home too and It is beyond amazing.  He is cleaning house with me and we are getting to know each other more.  I am crying a lot these days because the tender place in my heart is full of love from Him.  Isn't that such a neat way to see God? 

Well today I had the chance to speak to my best friend a few times and as she mentored me I couldn't help but feel blessed by her.  She reminded me that sometimes God answers prayer with saying to wait. It's hard to sit back down and accept a time period of waiting but I think this will be an incredible place in my life as I grow and mature.
Well I should end here as my sweet baby is going to need to eat pretty soon. Goodnight friends!

Okay so what does prayer look like for you? I really do want feedback on this please :).


Alexandra Cook said...

Prayer for me is similar to yours. I just go to a quiet place where it's just me and Jesus. He listens to my worries and fills me with a sense of peace. He reminds me that it's all in His plan and that I will make it through. I know He would not put an obstacle in my path if He did not know I could overcome it.

Anonymous said...

Prayer for me is similar, also, but I have the image of what is in my heart for the people I pray for, or the things that are on my heart. I imagine that God is listening patiently when I "ramble on" about this or that, then I finally get to the crux of it, I feel his smile radiate inside me. It's as if He says, " got here. Here's some more love for you!"

Anonymous said...

Er....that one was mine, Laura.


Patti Hanan said...

I spend time alone in prayer every morning. It blesses my whole day. Yes, prayer often means waiting, but the waiting is for a purpose. We grow as we wait on the Lord. His timing is perfect.
The pictures of you and your baby are precious!