Thursday, February 17, 2011

Savor the now!

If there was one thing that I know God is saying to my heart right now it's to savor the now.  To enjoy where I am at in life's journey right now. 
So often I am ready for the next step and eager to welcome the next chapter in, but miss out on being thankful for the small joys in the moment.  I'm sure that we all can admit to falling into this pit once or twice? I'm glad that God has revealed this to me because I have a short amount of time left in the end of my first pregnancy.  I can now soak it up and not miss out on the last kicks or the little rump that pushes my upper right abdominal to the sky! I can enjoy the last few times my baby has the hiccups and laugh as they seem to never end.  God wants us to not miss out on the small joys in life.  It's all in how we see life.  

Every now and then God forces me to step back and look at life through a new perspective. I L O V E when that happens because it changes my heart and actually brings me back to the 'Laura' that reflects Christ the most.  I have run ahead of God many times when things are easy and will forget to keep Him at the center of my heart.  There needs to be discipline while following God and i'm having a hard time with that!
I have been saved for many years but am re-learning how to pray.  Isn't that crazy? It's weird because that is the funniest thing to re-learn I told God and you'd think i've had mastered this important connection with God but no...I haven't arrived yet! When God reveals certain things to my heart where i'm wrong it can be a bittersweet thing. 
I want to recognize who I'm talking to, and trust that when I am lifting others to God that He is big enough to take care of things.  I have been keeping a prayer journal since I was young and it is always special when I run into an old one and read through and realize how God answered a prayer.  Or how He worked a miracle out in my life or a friends.  I don't ever want to lose sight of how God is faithful in responding. 

Darren comes home tomorrow and i'm beyond happy.  I told him that it feels like he's going to be gone for months and months and it's weird to think he'll be home again.  I've been able to settle into a great church family that blesses me daily.  There is a group of woman that i've come to know and I appreciate the friendly chatter throughout the day.  The days before Darren left I was having a hard time with him having to leave.  I didn't know if he'd make it back in time for our son's birth and I was thinking what am I going to do for 3 weeks, I don't even know anyone! But God heard my prayers for friends and the ones praying for me that i'd find a church family and be covered.  He also blessed my friday nights with a group of navy wives that had friday night dinners.  All of our husbands were away and we were able to get together and talk about God, our men, the navy, and other fun things.  Then God sealed the deal with sending my mom here for a couple weeks.  She's been busy helping me get meals prepared and a few last minute running around.  It's also been fun to spend time hanging out!
If I've learned something this past year it's been that God will provide.  I can't even begin to write out the many ways He has blessed me in the times I least deserved it.  I've learned that God will humble us by showing us what we are without Him.  It's hard when sin enters our heart and we choose that over God..and he lets us.  These times in my life are hard when I realize i'm wrong and God is not the center of my heart.  I hate when i'm living for me me feels awful.  In my weakest moments God shines through the strongest and i'm amazed.  It doesn't take long for me to step aside and remember where I was before I knew God. 

Well I can't wait for tomorrow! :) My sweet husband will be home and I can't wait to give him a huge hug and kiss and welcome him back home.  I miss his smile, voice, friendly compliments, and presence in our apartment.  Life is more sweet when he's in it! He's my best friend and as nice as emails can be it doesn't compare with face to face conversation. Can't wait to have my hello/goodbye kisses not be separated by weeks/months. :)
I'm very much in love with Darren and am thankful for how he encourages my daily walk with God and loves me for me. Goodnight friends!

And to leave you with a picture that makes me smile! :) 
I decided to cave in one more time and savor these last moments that I don't seem to care about my diet!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Have you tried the BAKED cheetos??? Those are to DIE for! LOL! I used to crave all that stuff with both my kids. Until I was about 6mos along with Kim and told that my blood pressure was sky-rocketing. End of salty cravings, lemme tell ya! I didn't even risk it with Mike! LOL!

I'll wish you an early "Happy Homecoming Day" for you and Darren tomorrow. From here on, it's "Garrett's Birthday" preparations! Yaaaaaaaaaay!!! Enjoy these last moments, Laura. You will truly treasure them!