Friday, January 7, 2011

We bought a Jeep Patriot! Darren and I have driven it a few times now and each time we look over to each other and say 'WE HAVE A JEEP!'. I feel like two little kids with a toy but this is very much NOT a toy! I have never been more nervous in my life to drive anything. I am thankful for God's guidance in buying this vehicle and the peace of mind that has come along with it. I wanted my dad more than anything to be sitting in that room telling me go for it or leave it. Instead I called out to God and was covered. My husband and I were given a moment alone and he took my face in his hands and told me I was handling this so well for not knowing we were coming to buy a car that night. I knew this was coming eventually but have been dragging my feet because it's a big decision. Darren is smart and last night as I sat next to him I thanked God that he blessed me with a man that loves and provides for me at all costs. Because of my stubbornness to go home that night and not being crazy about the color there was a good deal of money that continued to come down. I continued to say we'd go home and think about it and get back to the dealer in the morning but then he'd go away and come back with a lower price.
He was a very nice man and of course wanted to sell a car that night and they're given room to lower numbers but I honestly felt safe. Between furniture and car dealers i'm not a big fan! They are trying to sell and are good at what they do and if your a first time buyer they compare to a shark and you are the minnow. It stinks that our world is dishonest and shady but it's a fact which forces me to be on guard constantly. He would have sold the car for thousands more if I'd not have been hesitant though..I didn't even know you're allowed to go in and make an offer! Did you know that if you say you don't like the color of a car and they don't have another one available they'll knock off a HUGE amount of money? Just a tid bit for you to keep in mind if ever you're in that position. I don't want to go through that process for a long long time though! No thanks :)
I was getting ready to write this blog about a really special moment this past week between God and I but i'm finding it to be hard to write now!
It's about my pregnancy and let me start by saying my baby boy has made himself quite comfortable in mommies right rib, his favorite spot!
I was sitting in the car and thinking about only having two more months to be pregnant. Also how I've been super whiny lately (Darren has been sympathetic and so incredible towards me though!) and then I started to hear God out. So this is my special moment between God that has deeply impacted me...
'Laura do you understand that there are a lot of woman that would give anything to feel five hours of your heartburn, or go to the bathroom twenty times a day, or feel tired over lack of sleep in order to have a baby inside of them?'
'I guess I've not really thought of it that way and have had a sour attitude'...
Our conversation goes on but this is the short version. :) God gave me a gift and although along with it comes some minor aches and pains I'm BLESSED to have a healthy growing baby inside of me! Since that time with God I have been soaking up this pregnancy and realizing how special it is, that i've been given a gift. There's nothing more important than having a good attitude in life in any given situation. It dramatically changes your life and God is honored when i'm acting in a way that reflects Him. I really really want that! I'm not perfect friends and have so much to learn but i'm glad God grabbed a hold of my heart before I turned into one big whiny pregnant woman! I wanted to apologize for giving you an image of me that's not so pretty. You have enough negatives in your life and it's been my prayer and desire that this blog is a safe encouraging place for you! Forgive me?
Darren is currently taking his two weeks off and I'm loving the time spent with him! His parents are here for a visit until Wednesday and we've had fun hanging out together and catching up. We are all looking forward to going to Jamestown and doing a couple touristy things.
I know this will pretty much be it for Darren and I before the baby comes and have never in all of my time knowing him soaked him up this much! I wake up and love him more every morning. I catch myself looking at him from across the room and being really happy that we've made it this far. I remember crystal clear a time when I thought we were over but God had different plans. One day I'm going to write our story out but not for awhile. I hope it will bless you and show you how faithful God is.
Last night I was sharing with Darren how I had read to lay on my side during pregnancy and not on my back during the night. The article said if you wake up and your laying on your back to just turn over. SO in the middle of the night I felt my sweet husband rolling me over because I was on my back and he was whispering 'Laura you can't lay on your back you need to be on your side'. He doesn't have to say it all the time or be a mushy gushy guy..I know he loves me. I don't deserve this man let me tell you! He has his flaws all right but as my mom encouraged me to remember a person's good qualities and let the bad go. Please don't get the impression we have a perfect marriage and that our home is always at perfect peace. We drive each other nuts some days! We're both learning grace though among many other things. :)
He has to leave again shortly for a small amount of time right before our baby is due and i'm dreading it but at the same time okay with it. I know God is going to use that time to draw me closer to himself and allow one last time for life to be still and quiet before the rush of motherhood arrives! I'm beyond excited to hold my baby boy and love on him. We are going to pick up the crib and dresser this weekend by the way! I will of course post pictures when we set it up and my mom offered to help me fix up his nursery. Alright well I need to go to bed because I am currently getting a wisdom tooth along with some sinus junk, not fun! I've lost my Tylenol so am relying on a good night sleep to help me feel better in the morning. Thank you for all the messages letting me know you read this! I am always really encouraged by them. Talk to you again soon!


Anonymous said...

First off, Sweet Pea, buy more Tylenol!!! LOL! You need to be in less pain so that the stress doesn't wear on you.

Know what I like about your insights, Laura? They are honest. Heartwarming and completely honest. Don't ever doubt that others are being blessed by your blog, because we all are. I might not be -- correction: I AM not -- pregnant, but your thoughts and your perspectives remind me of my own when I was waiting for Kim and Mike to arrive...24+ and almost 22 years ago.

I hope many young women are reading your blog, because regardless whether they are married or pregnant, you are a beacon of God's light to their hearts.


Anonymous said...

I found myself completely consumed by your words tonight... I started with your most recent posting and finally ended on this particular one. (I have also read sporadically from time to time) Your perspective on life (especially pregnancy at this particular time) only brings peace to me. Although we feel alone sometimes in our thoughts, we certainly are blessed with God's kindness and security. Thank you for sharing your stories and for bringing a smile to my face.