"In the morning when i rise..Give me Jesus..."
This song is close to my heart tonight.
Ever have those days that you feel everything? I call them my overly sensitive days! Let's be truthful, some of us in this world are just sensitive souls, nothing wrong with that but we need people who are, oh what's the word, more straight to it and tell it how it is. Like an amazing mother who says 'stop, breathe and listen'.
I went for a run tonight on the same trail I hiked through this past week. It was beautiful, and exhausting because through my frustrations i was running it off and my speed continued to pick up, faster and faster. Ha next thing i know i'm panting and can't breathe and realize i need to slow down! I have always found that in times i'm upset when i'm able to take a walk or sit outside it calms me down because i see God's beauty everywhere. When i was in highschool i used to sit under the stars and talk to God. I spent hours pouring out my heart to Him under the most incredible scenery. When things become unbareable and i'm all worked up it's then that God pulls me to a spot of absolute serenity and quietness in some display of His creation and immediately I'm stilled.
It's Jesus that loves me. Jennifer Knapp wrote a beautiful song that will always stick with me no matter what her lifestyle. She is talking about Jesus, and says, 'you remain'. I LOVE these words and hold them close to me, especially this past week. He remains close to me, no matter what.
I read the Bible this week without notes or reading the footnotes or cracking open a commentary, dictionary, or looking up online studies on that particular book. Nope i set that all aside and opened the book of Philippians and read what paul has to say to this particular church. In his letter which is broken into four chapters He said, "But whatever was to my profit i now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake i have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that i may gain Christ." (philippians 3:7-8)
THIS is the words i have not been able to find, but as i read them i started to cry. I am not well when i am being disobedient to Christ. I have known Christ as my savior for a long long time and there is nothing as sweet to my soul then Him. Even at his name i am smiling at the thoughts of him. I have never found a deeper joy in anything as much as i do in knowing Christ. I'm thankful for the simplicity in reading the scriptures without always studying. It's not suppose to always be such a deep thoughtful process. Sometimes it is what it is. Paul's sincerety to this church is wonderful to see as you read his words and hear him expressing how joyful he is, even though he is in chains. I wanted to share one more thing that i read about Jesus Christ that i read over and over and wanted every word to peirce my heart so i would never forget;
"Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death- even death on a cross! Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord" Philippians 2:5-10
He came to save us, and in a beautiful way. It's hard to believe a God would step down from his throne for us, but He did. It's your choice to believe Jesus is the son of God, and it's a faith based belief. But when you taste the goodness of knowing Jesus, and seeing his love for you revealed daily, oh dear...there are no words. Bitterness has hardened some people's hearts, and anger has turned others away. Selfishness has stood in the way of seeking God for others, and there are many other reasons for people refusing to believe, but wether you think so or not, this is the truth, that Jesus is the only way to heaven. Atheists will call me crazy and say my beliefs are foolish and how christians are hypocrits. I have one thing to say...I serve God as a sinner saved by grace, along other's who too are sinners but God saved us offering the same to you. We are equal...just because some people follow a lot of rules doesn't make them better then you, because we all fall short. There is none that is good in the sight of God. It is ONLY because of Jesus that we can stand before God as though we never sinned at all. None of us did anything extroadanary to be given this title as 'Christian' We said a prayer and asked Christ to come into our hearts admitting we are a sinner and need a savior. Jesus did everything, we just believe and i ask you see that please. I'm sorry if you've been offended, really i am...but we that follow God are not perfect. We too need grace, and the one you need to seek out and study is Jesus, and the life he led. I am here for a reason and that reason is to share with you the greatest thing to ever happen to me. That is knowing Jesus. I don't 'sell' him by making a list of facts on reasons why you can and should believe him. Those won't win your heart over. I just ask that you at least seek him, he hears those that call out his name and open their hearts to him. I pray for you that God is able to show you the same love he shows me.
I'm a wretched sinner. There are days i break down because i am aware of the sin in my past that haunts me, but there is a soft whisper that says all has been forgiven, Jesus has paid the price and i have been washed white as snow. I can't tell you that it's a cake walk, because it's not. Every day there is a choice to be made, do i follow him or follow me today? I don't know everyone that reads my blog, mostly family and close friends but maybe there is someone that's never heard Christ loves them. Well i'd like to at least share with you that he does. Life is very short and i don't want you to miss out on the joy of knowing the Lord.