I was driving home and the song that was playing was about how sometimes God shakes things up and it's a bit chaotic. I thought, 'wow, lord that sounds very familiar'.
Living in the hardest hit town in the U.S. has been depressing. Especially working at a bank and facing people who are so lost now that they've lost their jobs and don't really know how they're going to pay the bills. Darren and I are in a similar boat but he's found another job for the time being. (In april we'll find out if he was accepted as an officer in the Air force). It's scary not knowing what route things will take to get better, or if everyone's situation will get better.
As I've been studying in my bible the life of David, i've realized that he's one of my favorite characters in the bible, even in the midst of hectic situations he trusts God's hand and follows. In this world's loss i'm trying my best to trust that God is aware of everything, and who knows maybe this is a result of sin, or just life, either way God hasn't failed and He will be glorified through this bad time.
At work i read up on the news a little too much and i've come to a crossroad, i can either look at the bad and say this world is hopeless and it's too messy, or i can look to my amazing Savior and say, His death for us was big and he saved..and i've been blessed to know the good news and share it with the friends and family around me.
I grow more and more everyday and learn a little bit more about myself. I hate finding myself in the midst of confusion and doubt, but i'm thankful that the Lord allows us to be in these places, because it's the questions i have that ultimately pull me closer to His heart, and the wisdom from reading the word is a great thing!
I've never disliked a president so much, and it hit me the need to pray for Him. I was reminded that in the book of 1 samuel david had multiple oppertunites to take the life of his king (Saul) but he wouldn't because he said God appointed Him, and He'd be the one to remove him. That was huge for me because I was reminded by God that He allowed Barack Obama to be the president and He needed my prayers.
Frustrated as i was I kept wondering why America was given a president that rooted on 'It's all about you!' I think that's the heart of this country though, selfishness. It's breaking my heart to see the many groups like abortion groups, seperation of church and state groups, gay-marriage, etc, grow louder and louder as they fight for their freedom to do as they please. And now there is a president that supports them. I never believed the path i follow was going to be an easy one and that there'd be a ton of people along the road, but the future on this planet looks a little dim for christians. I think i'm ok with that because it never was easy for Jesus as He walked this world.
There has always been sin that marks back to adam and eve, it's no new thing to God, and it's in myself as well. I just look forward to the Day Jesus returns and completes all He said He would do. There's coming a day when we'll all stand before Him and give an account of our lives and i think we'll be a little surprised. I know a lot of my thoughts and ideas are immature and i'm sure i'll grow out of some of my 'crazy thinking' but i know i'll never lose this love for Christ that drives me to pursue deeper thoughts.
Well on a lighter note! i'm going to hobby lobby because it's 50% off and i'm going to enjoy my long weekend! Darren and I are having dinner with two friends tonight so that should be fun :) I hope you have a great night! Stay warm, it's suppose to snow :0 can you believe it was so warm and beautiful this week? I was very happy!